In answer to your question which others have asked,, being in a secret place; conducted secretly. hole-and-corner. adj. 1. (usually prenominal) furtive or secretive. hole′-and-cor′ner or hole′-in-cor′ner, adj.
in this case meaning hidden in the horrible experience or trial we learn and grow as a persom as we would not if life had just been uneventful - we gain something special.
I remember after seven years of problems, trials, deaths, asking - Why me ? I always tried to do the right thing be true to my values, make the loving choice - and I realised we don't do those things for reward, we should follow the right path no matter what occurs simply because it is so, and no matter what befalls us we can hold our head high, not shamefully - and I stopped feeling sorry for myself ! :-)