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'And If My Soul Is Crying' was written straight from the heart during a recent spell of abyssal sorrow, indeed, for some time now, I've been prone to such spells, which come, remain for a week or less, and then pass; although I no longer identify with this piece to any degree, and can't see myself doing so for some time as I finish writing this passage on 28 November 2015, with revisions being made two days later.

And If My Soul Is Crying

Def._2015_36_by Carl Halling12 Apr 2016

It's happening again,
Such unbearable pain,
And if my soul is crying
As my heart is breaking, then that's fine…

I've let so many people down,
Lost so many beautiful opportunities
I feel so failed and forlorn,
But is that really such a tragedy?

Perhaps, rather,
It's a positive thing,
Shouldn't a true artist be suffering?
At least I'm feeling something…

It's happening again,
Such unbearable pain,
And if my soul is crying
As my heart is breaking, then that's fine…