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'Twenty years to Destroy an Existence' is part of a collection of verse whose individual entries were created during one of my periodic 'glass half empty' periods, which come suddenly, and depart with equal suddenness, rarely lasting for more than a week or two, and occurring around three times a year.

Twenty Years to Destroy an Existence

Def._2015_36_by Carl Halling10 Apr 2017

Twenty Years to Destroy an Existence

How I try to count my blessings,
They do little to ease my saudade,
Look to the past
For some consolation,
But the past remains resistant,
O woe, where is hope?
I feel so old, and so alone…

Twenty years to destroy an existence,
Is all it took,
To steal my contentment,
Look to the past for a glimmer of peace,
To the past for a little release.
O woe, where is hope?
I feel so old, and so alone…

On one level, I feel so blessed,
Cleave to life with all my strength,
There’s so much to be thankful about,
‘Til I sink back into deepest night,
O woe, where is hope?
I feel so old, and so alone…