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Phantasmagoria Catasrophica.

Oddbodby Samantha Gray13 Feb 2019

Sometimes
in the crushing solitude of night
as I lie in bed
I will close my eyes
and visualize
shooting myself in the head.
Induction. Compression. Power. Exhaust. Eat lead.
Rupture. Carnage. Rapture. Liberation. I'm dead.
Brain explodes- blooms- a horrific rose.
Blood flies like a red bird
gifting fire to the skies.
Burn the isolation,
burn the shame,
burn the fact that I'm a freak.
Take this triptych of pain
and bring me relief.
Loss of feeling.
Loss of hope.
Loss of belief.
Trigger word.
Pulling technique.
Release.