This poem should be read together with my other poem titled "Let Go". It was written about the same boy, who single-handedly broke my heart and also indirectly gave me an opportunity to grow and discover myself.
I don't need someone to feel complete. It took me a while to realize that.
He probably doesn't know the extent of his impact on me and on my life, but well~ He doesn't need to know. :)
This poem is another way of looking at my relationship with him. It takes on a lighter, more positive tone, where I realized one day that my feelings for him no longer bring me pain and sorrow, but a comfortable feeling instead. Maybe instead of comfort it is actually a deadened feeling, where my heart protects itself from any thoughts of him. I don't know. But I choose to take the lighter route.
Now, my feelings for him have petered out, when I see him I no longer feel the crazy, intense things I used to feel, but more of a "oh it's Nicholas" kind of feeling. :)
But at times I do ponder, what would it be like to be in a relationship with him? He really is a pretty great guy, although maybe not the one for me.