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This poem is dedicated to ghost of who I was and who I hope to be.

Revive

Learning_to_fly_portraitby Michael J. Sielaff07 Oct 2013

Speak in tongues that ignore convention
And obey the liberty of chaos.
Trade store-bought success for loss-
Failure never seemed more freeing.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.

Stretch beyond means
And redefine capacity-
Dizzy my soul until it bleeds with excitement!
Cross out I'M in impossible with a red pen permanent.
Senses are used for the first time
Since the day I discovered the mind
Reached further than playground swings.
So kick off shoes and dirty socks
Until the hole in the toe becomes a gap
Wide enough to explore uncharted seas.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.

Remember when?
I'd rather not.
My heart recalls what my mind forgot.
That time I wanted to give her a hug
And tell her I loved
The way she was.
A simple impulse not yet polluted by the insecurity of "How she would take it."
Why didn't my heart move my feet?
Too shy, too scared, too young-
Excuses are villains left unsung.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.

If fear did not paralyze,
By high school I would have united
My best friends from each clique-
Confident they'd get along and be in my life forever.
But procrastination convinced me:
No need to rush, there will always be time
To say words past their prime.
Just like 3rd Period when Mr. Desperation
Attempts that extra little note
Before the bell
When all the students can think is that it's Taco Tuesday.
Attention fades when distracted by future.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.

Push Fast Forward.
High school bleeds into college.
Don't be left behind-
You don't want to be stuck in your hometown forever, do you?
Time to take some responsibility!
Good grades lead to financially stability
While acquaintances become "Friends" digitally.
And since they're only a click away,
It will take years to reach them.
I become more and more unsatisfied with where I am, who I be, and what's coming at me.
If I could only go back to that maple tree
That I used to climb 'til I stepped back and realized
It was too scary
But consequently,
Peace of mind isn't free.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.

Growing up fast wasn't the plan
But when role models are twice your age
The goal seems to be to get where they are as soon as possible.
Friends grow while relationships die
And by the time I tried to reason why,
I was given a rolled up piece of paper saying:
"It's up to you now."
Graduation equals no time for exploration so
Child-filled jubilation turns into uncertain desperation.
I miss imagination.
I miss her.
I miss them.
I miss memories that never happened.
I miss more than I move forward
Wondering who I was, who I am, and who I need to be.

I can't breathe routine
Tucking ambition away
My mind needs to stay
Stuck in a dream
'Cause it's never tomorrow today.
It's never tomorrow today.
Never tomorrow today.
Tomorrow today.
Today.

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