Assigned Dutch AKA Fuck You.

Dsc02480by Michelle Seyner19 Oct 2019

Assigned Dutch AKA Fuck You.

I read on Twitter that:
..."immigration has proven
not to work, with the
exception of most Indonesians
and people from Suriname."
Said by a white, Dutch
Trump supporter.
I told him, in barb-wired
Twitter alphabet:
"As an Indo, I do not like
being used as a weapon
to beat other minorities with."
To my astonishment, he
replied: "Indo's are no
minority... They are Dutch."
My "friend" : I am a 100% Indo,
but 1/4th Indonesian,
and you just used me
as a wedge against
immigrant minorities,
using your bullshit
"model minority"- myth,
and then you have
the nerve to
assign me Dutch
with your Trump-supporting,
colonial tongue.
History collects in your
imperialistic throat
and gets spewed out,
white-washed.
Search for the state-documents
stating they didn't want us,
we didn't belong here,
we were too culturally different,
we would languish in crime
and poverty....
Those are quite easy to find.
What makes you think
I need your white assessment?
That I need YOU
to tell me who I am?
What makes you think
you can erase the brown blood
from the coagulated, colonial mix
I am, just so you can try
and classify
me as one of "yours"?
Just a second ago
I was clearly
"minority" ENOUGH
to be used as a cudgel,
to be used as a "Close The Borders"- sign
while simultaneously
being your mixed-blood excuse
for "not being racist."
Fuck you.
I don't need your approval,
I don't need your
"deemed Dutch enough"- stamp.
You cannot declare me
"model-minority"
AND "Dutch" at the same
damn time.
I'm not the beige sandwich
you can butter on both sides.
I do not need your
conditional status.
I know enough of
colonial times
to see what you're
trying to do here.
You also just told me
with your racist little
pretzel logic
that a person
CANNOT
be a minority
AND Dutch
at the same time -
unless YOU need
to weaponize
Dutch citizenship
against those
you do not like.
The white line
of my ancestors
is fĂ­lled by people like YOU,
assigning - or denying -
status to people like me
in whatever ways was
most profitable to you.
I am no neon sign
to loudly proclaim
your hatred on
while at the same time
I'm forced to function
as your excuse for it.
I am not on your side.
I will never BE on your side.
I do not accept
your "authority"
to declare me
"white."

19 October 2019.
Michelle Seyner.