I am tired of feeling this need

to try

with you, with each of you
each day

I am tired of

Dirty socks

crumbs in each crevice of my
purple sheets - each flower petal
that decorates my

There's a dull sense of

pain

shrouded by nervous energy.

I don't want to go
but I need to

You are so close
I can barely comprehend -
I can barely put into
words

how you are

I spent my Summer

staring at the lighter fluid on the
campsite table, and wondering

how much

Today: i am sad.

Today, I let my broken pieces define
me. Grip

onto romanticised