cold, still shivers
as you would
a whistling wind upon spineless
Today: i am sad.
Today, I let my broken pieces define
Your soft fingertips
in steady motion across the small
of my back
your breath against my neck,
Feels like a heavy sadness and a deep need to hold him
It feels like we’ve lost
you're no longer here
you say you are.
you lie because we do. because it's the kind
Thinking of you
creates this tension behind my eyes, this
frown, so evident, upon my
Every glance from you feels inevitably
every message anticipated,
I want you to tell me
I look nice today.
I don't feel like it.
I want you to check in -
I feel like it's okay now,
to want you here
to want you to hold me, so maybe
I won't feel so
I can't ask you to hold me
and it hurts
it hurts in a way that's unfamiliar,
like my skin aches
your smile, it radiates through time.
it trancends every bitter remark, every night spent