insecurity

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins20 Feb 2018

i lose hope:
i got caught up again. too deep,
he does not feel the same

i feel this ache
this familiar pain
that comes with rejection, neglect,
endless insecurity
and paranoia.

i am not an idiot - i know it does not matter.

my emotions will not listen
to reason.