just as i do

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins17 Feb 2018

I lean near you
just to hear you move your wrist,
sigh.

to let your scent
overcome my senses.

i watch as you walk - think -
"say something clever
be interesting
i know you're not - but try -
but don't try too hard."

i lean my chin against the railing
and turn to look at you:
we talk.
i feel i know you. i feel i could
love you

just as i do, you do not.
just as i love, you forget, you neglect

it's not your fault,
it's mine.

I need to be
better. try
less.