shut in

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins17 Feb 2018

every inch of muscle
is tense.

if i move
i will open the gates

pain
like someone is crushing my skull
from each direction

the desperation
the exhaustion
the regret
the confusion
the exhaustion

why did i go out today
why did i go out