can not

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins16 May 2018

I could not -

can not -

love you.

all i feel is dull space, blank
in your arms.

your words disappear into the space behind my ears,

your touch is empty. Meaningless.

i want to want you

but each cell in my body screams with each breath i take

of your breath —

i do not.