I can never be

Db4ea419-1e23-4495-8f91-854766b657cbby Jessica Hopkins21 Jan 2019

There's a dull sense of

pain

shrouded by nervous energy.

I don't want to go
but I need to see you

I don't want to see you
I don't want to disappoint -

Can't you see you've made me this
way you've changed me in a
heartbeat
a decision I never knew of
was never a part of.

It's impossible to tell
but my uncertainty plagues each
task
and my insecurity widens with each
touch

from you, each word.

There is something I can never be.
I can never be

whoever it is you think you see.