by Jessica Hopkins14 Feb 2019
I am tired of feeling this need
with you, with each of you
I am tired of this shit
that feels like a futile effort to
a representation of how I truly feel,
how I want to feel?
why do I keep seeking this
melancholy, its state is like a drug
because I am not happy being
happy. Content. Mild
in my demeanor and in my mind.
I want to feel volatile to myself - i
want to feel turmoil
i feel empty without it. There is no