I know I will miss you

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins12 Apr 2019

I know I can't avoid
hurting you

hurting myself

with guilt, loss / I know I will miss you

every second

and ask "what if"
every hour

I know this new happiness
you bring

will be wiped clean - am I just scared

am I broken

is it you?

I don't want to face this
and then life - after.

Pain, distance

guilt, overriden

as your perception of me fades
into one
of loathing