in your absence

39944276-0c53-4486-8c88-5dcbca75e708by Jessica Hopkins14 Apr 2019

I keep reliving this memory

It plays on repeat in my mind

Your thumb caressing my head, my hair
tangled in your hands

Your palm
up and down,
across my bra strap,
beside my spine.

Your words

words no one’s ever before spoken to me

“all I care about is the way your hair falls from your head

You are too beautiful

I am instinctively in love with you”

Your regret, mine

as I wish I could go back to that moment.
make it last forever

but it’s fading and so are you
your love for me, your care

soon it will be someone else
in your arms
at midnight
on the badly lit streets of Glasgow

you will tell them you love them

and I will stand, without

with fear of losing that intimacy
that intimacy that makes my skin

light up

and burn -
in your absence.