you lie

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins18 Apr 2019

you're no longer here
for me.

you say you are.

you lie because we do. because it's the kind thing
to do.

i don't want your shallow sorry,
your superficial comfort.

i don't want to hear
from him
her friend
mine
what you've done, how you are.

i don't want to watch you
from this distance.

i don't want to become
even more insignificant.

you feel relieved, i know.
i would, do i?

i never said i didn't love you, want you.

i can't understand why it's denied from me --

all i know is

there are things i cannot fix but i wish
i could have tried to fix them
with you.