i fantasize

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins18 Apr 2019

i fantasize

about the large knife in my cupboard

am i bored?

i fantasize

about the art of the crimson blood in spirals
with the red hot water of my shower

i fantasize as an escape in itself
from my

dissatisfaction
loneliness
a complete state of carelessness

i fantasize, i feel it would
make me happy

but here in reality the knife is too sharp my veins too thin
i think it would work:

i would not want to destroy you
so completely.