just for today

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins03 May 2019

I want you to tell me
I look nice today.

I don't feel like it.

I want you to check in - because
I'm your first

your first, everything
and you would never forget
or neglect.

I want , everything I can't have

because I miss you every second, time stops. It just
hurts

on loop

and in waves, sometimes

at the bottom of my chest, almost at the
surface

can you break through, can you

make me feel okay
the way you used to

when you'd tell me it's endearing, when
you'd reach over
so visibly in sympathy, so visibly
in care

can you make time move
again
with your purpose and your words

can you make me
feel
okay

if just for today?