restless

Whatsapp_image_2019-03-24_at_16.04.23__1_by Jessica Hopkins14 Nov 2019

Restless

this is not enough anymore
how was it ever enough?

I have to get out

of this room, of this thinly knotted web
of relationships

that don’t make me happy
anymore.

Meaningless

Life just wasting away everyday
through nonsense and rooms that feel distant

books that won’t save me from the heartbreak, the world
From the loss.

Impossibly — i need to go. Escape this dirty oxygen, this polluted mind,

this city. this city that I can’t see as

beautiful, or

as home.

These people, myself —- because it’s just a show now

a facade for a dissatisfied self