by Jessica Hopkins04 Apr 2020
your smile, it radiates through time.
it trancends every bitter remark, every night spent crying,
waiting at my phone,
every little detail of the resentment, as it
built up slowly and
your smile, that day,
at the carousel. like i was something,
your laugh, your shy remarks,
your insistence on driving me home, each night
when I felt alone.
your smile, i now realize
was so much more, it was in itself,
the brokenness between us.
the unreciprocated love.
the pining and the falsehood, the layers of lies
and dependence -
that built up
and tore us apart, though we never were whole
to begin with.