i thought i’d let it go

39944276-0c53-4486-8c88-5dcbca75e708by Jessica Hopkins04 Apr 2020

i thought i’d let it go - this anger

but sometimes it comes back. Like a dark figure at the edge of a room, just nearly out of sight.

sometimes i notice him

and i feel it all again. The hurt he caused me

the time i wasted, the worth i threw away.

the words and the looks and the laugh after you’ve said it

as if it’s funny

as if it’s okay, to tear me down with a light chuckle and a careless comment.

as if it doesn’t matter, that you define my worth.

i never blamed you. there’s nothing to be gained in being a victim.

i blamed myself, i still do.

For not being perfect in your eyes