I’m angry all the time

39944276-0c53-4486-8c88-5dcbca75e708by Jessica Hopkins04 Nov 2020

I’m sick of my own words

I’m sick of my own grief

I’m sick of my constant attempts to make things okay with myself, with others

to understand and to clarify and to
grow up

I’m sick of settling for existing and
for hating each aspect of myself

I’m sick of daydreaming about death and not being able to sleep before I do and

not being able to sleep at all really.

I’m sick of it

and I don’t know if I can keep trying to make it better. Maybe I was never really
trying

at all