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6. REFLECTIONS AND PERSONAL INDULGENCES.

A slice of an on-going battle against depression.

The Recesses Of My Mind.

Me_at_lleisiau_2by SJ Alexanderson18 Nov 2013

It is dark in here…
Dark, oppressive and foreboding.
Yesteryear familiarities
Herd my emotions into a pen
Of enveloping melancholia.
No honeysuckle memories today …
They are buried too deep
And my nails are as blunt as
My non-wit. A man
Holding the shreds of my dreams and ambitions
Stares blankly
As he feeds them into the furnace
Of regrets and disappointments.
There is a boy I recognise from my past
Pleading to be allowed a second chance –
But he is met with an overwhelming silence,
At which point I gouge at my eyes
For witnessing the realisation of an unfulfilled life.
Beating a disheveled retreat
Cloaked in confusion,
I decide that I will self-harm
Again today …
As I did yesterday
And
The
Day
Before …