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This is my way to vent. Suicide fixes nothing. I know I don't want to die. I just want things to get better. I just don't know how to make them better and feel very alone sometimes so I write it out. I have lost a family member to suicide and felt the aftermath of how much everyone left behind is hurt and lost. I would never be so cruel. So I write. I vent.

What No One Sees

35322_1400888115505_4897018_nby Softwolfsong aka Tammy Richards28 Nov 2013

Hurt, pain, darkness, gloom
For hope there is no room
Empty, numb, it hurts to breath
Searching for reasons not to leave

Fake smiles, pretend it's all okay
Just give a smile and walk away
Walking around with a hole in her chest
But smiling pretty and giving her best

Look for reasons just to survive
Live on the edge to know she's alive
Drive fast until she gets there
If she crashed she wouldn't care

Live life serving others
Wife, friend, servant, mother
No one there who really knows
Pain consuming, the darkness grows

No one knows her, her hope didn't stay
The strength she had just walked away
It left her broken, it left her full of sorrow
No hope for a future, no hope for tomorrow

Strength gone, laughter gone, now only pain
Hope gone, love gone, nothing is the same
Emptiness, sadness, she cried into the night
Bang, bang, all better now, it will be all right